Archive: August 2003

A blue rose

Ok I have a few things I’m going to get off my chest and I’m going to save the best for last. First things first the past week was definitely a busy one and for the weekend I went with my roommate Justin, and Jenny and Blake up to Central Michigan for the weekend, it was the weekend I needed, just to get away from everyday busy life and just sit on the porch and relax, ahhh. Had fun at all the many parties too! Central is definitely hoppin’!! LOL. Anyways as I had said in the last entry how I met this wonderful girl, Tiffany, online we have been talking a lot. Well it turned into something I never wanted it to and never expected. We’ve been really happy with each other and she truely is a very unique and wonderful person. But we’ve had some complications lately, see when we started with everything we really didn’t take much thought behind what we were doing and we were really happy. I just thought that through all we’ve been through that if we were to take things more seriously we should slow it down and take things in slower. That is where I got the inspiration for this poem:

The Blue Rose

It’s something nobody truly knows
The magic and poison of the blue rose,
An awe in nature something I’ve never seen before
Glows through your eyes oh so ever more
It’s a beauty quite unique to anything else I’ve seen
I don’t know where I’m at with it, I feel in between
Something new to my eyes fascinates me more
Yet the reassurance of safe to touch is needed in lore
What am I to experience, is it good or bad?
Will it leave me in wealth of happy or sad?
What is a blue rose and will I be deceived?
Or will the power of its essence grow from this very seed?
What I do know now is that I see the light that it needs to grow
There’s no need to rush the presence that it will bestow
So I will proceed with caution on the sight of a blue rose
Even though the aroma of its charm is right beneath my nose
If it really exists then it is here for a reason
Its bloom may just be waiting for that special season
No need to force the strengths of nature yet let it take its course
Because tampering the intricate perfection may cause remorse
The thorns exists for this very unique cause
To admonish the strength of what exists now as flaws
The blue rose is something more than just another flower
It beautifies in time, much more than a daily hour
Until I’ve touched the face of its petal and the beauty it does possess
Then will I know that I’ve truly been of a bless
As for now let me study the fascinating design the blue rose has to hold
And with each revolution of the earth will its true history unfold
Its nonsense to hide the ambience that this rose has to accrue
Eventually I’ll see the truly unique beauty of why this rose is blue

Please let me know what you think about what this poem as to say and whether you agree on it or not? Right now I’m so confused with everything thats going on and I only wish for the best. Hope everyone has a superb week and I’ll be back soon enough

Camping and wow

Well you will not believe what has happened over the past week. Thursday the most unexpected thing in the world happened. While I was working around 4ish the power went out and boy did it ever. From New York to Ohio to Michigan to Canada it was a black out. Unbelievable. Blackout 2003 soon to be titled to out the power of 50 million people spanning over a 26 hour period, by far the largest US blackout ever in history. Oh and this blackout was so much more than just that. Previous to that day I met a girl online through LiveJournal itself and we had spontaneously exchanged phone numbers. Before the anything happened again I was talkng to her online at work. Then the blackout hit and damn was it ever dark and since nothing worked included cell phones I couldnt get ahold of any of my family or anyone so I pulled out my phone sat back down in my completely darked out office scrolled down my phone book to ‘Tiffany (internet)’ thought to myself I could call her b/c she doesnt live in this area so I just looked at the number and kept debating over whether I should call it. So I just was like screw it I’m gonna call so I picked up my work phone whick was analog and dialed the digits. The first time no answer and I neglected to leave a message so 10 minutes later I called back and proceeded to leave a message but she picked up, I was like oh shit no way! And from there on out we talked and talked while I sat in the pitch dark her sweet voice just kept talking. As for later that night I had to work late to take care of the network and other vital computer information pieces and then I drove over my cousin b/c none of the lights worked and that was probably as far as I could get. Nick and I and his friends then went for one of the longest and most craziest bike rides ever. We started in Clinton Twp went south to a 7-11 where they gave us free ice cream b/c no power to keep them cool and then we road into Mt Clemens and all around downtown Clem. One our way back b/c it was just so damn hot we found a random APT pool that we used to cool off in then back to Nick’s. By far Thursday was one of the most amazing and awesomest days of my life. It’s a book within itself. As for Friday through Sunday I went camping with Rachel, Shawn, Jen, Matt, Jason, Justin, Devon, Ron, and Greg. We had a good time, spent all day Saturday canoeing. A very fun weekend. As for today we were home by 1 and I just unpacked. Oh but on the way home I decided to pick up a web cam so that I could video conference with Tiffany. Did we ever connect. Ya know I really haven’t thought about anyone like this since Sarah, and actually I’m loving every minute. We just talked for hours on end just about the whole day. I can’t believe how well we agreed on topics and thoughts and knew what we were thinking. Yet there’s always something, 1,191.9 miles that is. She lives in the beautiful Orlando, Florida as I reside myself in Sterling Heights, Michigan. Yes a distance most look as impossible, but ya know what I’d like to think different about the distance. I dunno?! I’ve never been in any relationship like this and honestly is it possible? I don’t know, but for now what I do know is that I did meet an awesome sweet gal that I will continue to talk to and get to know. She’s truely unique and I’m liking everything about her. I hope that I havent become crazy or anything I mean lets put this into a perspective. I met a girl online, 1191.9 miles away, whom I’ve known for 5 days, and I’ve more than connected to her, hmm. I guess it may sound ridiculous, but I haven’t been this happy in so long and I think it’s only going to get better!! Anyways tomorrow I have my final exam in Calc 2 which I need to pass with a reassuring 75.33% for a passing grade, pathetic, I know, but I will make it through, eventually. Well I think you’ve had enough of my life and I’m so ready to catch up on some sleep so til then, have a good week.

Another week down

Not much to share over tha past week. Umm Thursday I went to see American Wedding, again with Jill, Shawn, and Nikki. Awesome bad ass movie! Friday wasn’t much either. Oh except I got a killer bonus at work!! Man do they love me!! We went to Matt’s (my cuz) house to have a lil “get-to-gether” but the turnout wasn’t really much of anything. Then Saturday Nick and I went to the 1st Lions exibition game, they won, kick ass. Hopefully they’ll have something to dish up to the table this year. We’ll see eh? As for later Saturday nite I tried to have people over but it was kinda odd cuz random people just showed up at random times yet nobody was really over at the same time. It was an interesting nite. As for Sunday I just laid round for most of the day worked on a few websites for some more money. MAG Media Design is gonna get hot, just you wait and see!! Anyways Sunday I met up with Shawn and played volleyball at Dodge Park then later that night went with Rachel, Devon, and Deanna to a Texas Roadhouse party. Monday, spend 11 hours at OCC!! Fuck I hate calculus with a passion. Just let me pass, damn is it that hard to do that?!! As for today I’m just here at work catchin up on things and taking care of all problems that I can resolve. It’s nuts I kinda feel like I’m always fixin problems, like I’m a universal solution. I dunno it’s cool at times that I’m lookd upon like that but at times I just wanna be like maybe another time. Ya know sometimes I need a break too. But don’t get me wrong I love helpin people out, I do, so I’m still here. And you know where to find me. Don’t ever hesitate to ask me anything and I’ll do what I can. Ok I’m out, if someone’s lookin for someone new to talk to IM me at SuperSexyNino, and talk to me! PEACE!

Skydiving amazing yet DAMN

Well the beginning of the week wasn’t anything out of the ordinary. Thursday I found out something horrible. A neighbor/friend from was in a horrible boating accident instantly killing one of the guys on the boat and put 2 others in critical condition. One of the kids in CC was Nash. As of Friday evening he didn’t make it any further. I wasn’t very close to Nash, but he always always would say hi or wave every time I drove by his house, a few times we’d talkd. He was cool guy and it’s odd knowing that he ain’t gonna be there on his driveway anymore wavin. DAMN. RIP Nash. On a lighter note Friday I went skydiving. One of the greatest things I’ve ever done in my life!! The thrill of falling 14,000 feet is unexplainable yet the coolest! Fo sho will I be doing that again!! Click here to see a small montage of my jump If you’re ever considering on going, don’t hesitate, its going to be something you’ll never regret!! As for later Friday night I went to the Sterlingfest and may I say I felt old. All the lil youngin hoochies were running around. I did run into Nikki which was cool. We were gonna go out friday night, but due to other circumstances, the plans fell through. Ah well it was cool to see her there. Later that night Shawn, Jen, Jason and Rachel came by and we just chilled. Saturday I went to the Italian festival with my cousins Mario and Jerome. Later that night stayed and spent the night at Karrie’s graduation party. As for Sunday it was just a lazy day. Roy, Matt, Rachel, and Jason hung out with us and watched Goldmember. As for today I’m still waiting on my damn car to get back cuz it’s been in the shop from some dumbass who hit it. And later tonite I have school with an exam. Can life get any crazier?!! Anyways I must bounce as I continue to study for my exam. Best of luck to all.