I have what I like to call “Entrepreneurial ADD”. Its not a matter of coming up with the ideas, but actually executing and following through. As I continue to do what I love to do, I’m starting to learn how to gain control on what I know and what I want to know.

I hate/love the fact that I am not afraid to jump into almost every business proposal thrown at me.  It’s great that I’m considered as a business partner, all the time, but now is the time to take a step back, control my tangencies and focus on a few core projects. I think over the past few years I’ve created a bottleneck of business ventures that time doesn’t fit for them all. Six months ago I got a big big white board and put it right above my bed so that I can project my work, my ideas and concepts. This thing has helped me over-in-abundantly.

I recently had a phone conversation with someone who really wants to work with me on some venture, one way or another, and as I continued to talk to him and explain him my outlook, I hope it makes more sense about projecting future. Let me see if I can re-iterate my concept of my future/career/life.

I don’t want to work at a job 10 years from now with job security. I don’t. I’m trying to build a business model for my life now that will work for me and create its own job security for itself. See it works like this…I’m constantly approached with business opportunities, website work and so forth on day to day basis. I’m very thankful and greatful that so many come to me with their business opportunities and freelance work, but in the long run, much like my infinite list of project ideas, my life becomes of a bottleneck. Lets just think about this for a second…if I take on a freelance website job, I develop it, I get paid, I’m happy, the client’s happy. That’s fine and dandy, but its the residual job security that that one job creates. It sounds like a good thing right? Wrong. As I continue to become a dependency for so many others, its almost like an unsigned obligation to continue to work for these people. It would be a great business model if I wanted to work the rest of my life in a monotonous job,  retire when I’m 65 and live the rest of my days in Florida, but that’s not how I see it.

I want to develop systems, methods, projects, ideas, that as a long haul will catapult me into a different business realm. I’m in the dirty work of my life, working a 9-5 job, then meetings and late night personal work until 2 or 3am every night. Its these persistent stages of work now that not only helps me learn about life, good and bad, but will hopefully one day overcome this resistance and leverage my career.

If I could take all my focus, mind, body, and soul and put it forth on one thing at a time I think know I will one day be able to go back to all of my other business endeavors and invest my time and money to bring them up to speed.  Rome wasn’t built in a day, but one building at a time.  That is my new outlook on life, so I’m going back to fundamentals and focusing on what means the most to me right now.

I know one day as I do actually have some capital to spend, I can invest it my other ideas and enjoy life.  A life where I don’t have job security but entrepreneurial security.  At this point, I want to be able to spend more time enjoying life and spending it with the people I love the most.  My American Dream.